Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Fear and Loathing in Surrey

Well, I'm at work and I am sooooo excited that I get two days off. Problem is that I have already been offered a shift for Friday (which I turned down), and now my fellow mammographer just said that she' feeling really sick and will probably call in for tomorrow, and I am the only other mammographer available (there's three of us in the department; one is on holidays).
ACK! I want my two days off!!! I am soooo tired. I am also soooo overwhelmed by the fact that I may have to work tomorrow. I just don't feel 'well' emotionally. I need my two days to re coop. But I am the only one...they'll have to cancel appointments and possibly life saving breast surgeries if I don't come in. Whatever.

I'm feeling really behemoth. I was getting in better shape before I got my wallet stolen from the gym I go to. I think I acted out in rebellion against the thief as I haven't been back since. Problem is I sabotaged myself.
I wanted my two days off to get myself back into the swing of things (exercise wise).

I probably sound like a whiny baby. Oh well, I am whining. We're all entitled to whine once in a while. (I probably whine more than I should but right now I don't care).
Argh.
I guess I have to go...break's over.
Shebee

12 comments:

chalexa said...

hey cutie! sometimes i just pretend in my head that i like my work!!!! hahaha... i'm like "yay, i actually get to work tomorrow!" And then i think of all the benefits like.. um... staying in touch with the swing of things? lol

I have to work tomorrow. this is what i tell myself :)

marja said...

I agree with Chalexa. If you got to do it why not say to yourself: "Oh goody, I get to go to work tomorrow."

Hope I'm not sounding insensitive. Yes, a couple days off would have been nice for you.

Bleeding Heart said...

A lot of us don't like our jobs and when we don't like our jobs it makes life very stressful....

It is very hard to wake up in the morning to go to work...it is very hard to go to bed Sunday night knowing that Monday morning work is ahead of us when we HATE our jobs....I know this feeling all too well...

Maybe it is time for a Career Change!!

This is NORMAL!!! And you don't have to convince yourself that you like your job! It won't help....I tried...

I changed my Career job when I was burnt out from Waitressing....I decided to work for my local Humane Society and it was the best Career Choice I EVER made!!!!

Bleeding Heart said...

I JUST saw your profile...Girlfriend...you are ONLY 29 years old! Shit! You have your WHOLE life ahead of you...


CHANGE your career! What are you waiting for!?!

Gosh! I am 40 years old! I changed my career after having three kids and went through a Divorce and I was OH, I think...32 years old!!

It is NEVER TOO LATE!!!

Go for it!

chalexa said...

hey.. i think Dream Writer is partially right.. but it's different when you've worked so hard and done 4 years of University already for the career you have now...!

I know i get paid too much to do anything else unless i go to med school or get my Masters in something which i can't since my grammar is so bad! But that's just me...

Bleeding Heart said...

Yes, some of us are fortunate to make enough money where they cannot change careers...but I have heard and met so many people who DID go to school and got their Masters and Doctorates became whatever lawyers, doctors, and then decided that they wanted to be a "teacher" or something more simple like work in a shelter for Domestic Violence.

What really matters is that we do what we are set out to do in this world...we truly know what our purpose is in life...it is our true calling...and it can as simple as being a teacher, a counselor, a writer, a secretary in a homeless shelter, whatever...the point is...the NUMBER ONE stress in a person's life is their job and for US bipolars WE must avoid stress and the one way we can do that is to make a Career Move! :)

marja said...

But a career move isn't always affordable. There's a need to be practical too. If you're not, you might end up with problems that would truly be a big reason for depression.

Bleeding Heart said...

I agree..You do have to be practical...but a lot of times, for most people it is Fear!

shebee said...

thanks for your opinions ladies, I really appreciate them.
I have to side with dream writer (for the most part) on this one. Life is too short for us to be bored with our careers. Maybe I do make good money, but for what? If I don't feel like I'm making a difference, what's the point?
I just feel like God has bigger and better things for me to do. I've always felt that way.
Maybe I'm being too mch of an idealist...who knows

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Bleeding Heart said...

I used to write for a column (Online Magazine) called Celebrating Life and it was an inspirational Piece that really was about Life and what Life really meant...

Money is important...It is what puts a roof over our head, food in our mouths, clothes on our backs, but I rather live in a Hut and be happy than live in a Mansion and be miserable :)

shebee said...

Amen dream writer!